Update #3

I had my second appointment with Dr. Midgley today. We discussed my little improvement, and she said that she was pretty bummed that I'm not feeling all the way better, but it also doesn't surprise her because she expected that it would take a little while to heal. We were discussing a few other conditions that I am having, and she wanted to do an EKG to ensure that my heart is functioning properly. I did the EKG, and everything looks totally normal, so my heart at least is healthy and strong. I also did the hypercoaguable workup (the blood test to see if it really is a blood disorder) today and will receive the results from that soon enough. My MRI results were good. Most of my arteries looked good, there were a couple that seemed to have a few problems, so they are watching those, but overall, it was good. Dr. Midgley did take away the timeline, she is no longer quite sure how long until I am feeling better and how long until she can give me the "okay" but she is certain that I will be okay soon enough.

The thing I like most about Dr. Midgley is she is very smart and also very thorough. I do not feel that anything is being overlooked or brushed off. She is considering all things and is very smart and quick on her feet. Other considerations are being made, and all posibilities are currently being investigated. I am seriously in love with her. I wish she would live and be a doctor until I die so I never have to find a new doctor in my whole life.

I am learning that the Lord gives us challenges, not to show us His power and how He can fix anything and take us out of the situation, but so that we can learn what He needs us to learn at that particular time in our life. I'm not gonna lie, this has been a heck of a challenge for me, and it kind of sucks. But you know what? It is okay because the Lord KNOWS us. He knows us each individually and wants to help us. We just need to reach out to Him first and show Him our faith and trust. I am learning that life is hard, and it can sometimes feel like crap, and there are times where ou feel so down and overwhelmed with life that all you want to do is crawl back into bed and just lie there for the whole day. And those days are okay! You need to allow yourself to have the feelings that you are experiencing, but you also need to activate your faith and do something about whatever is bringing you down.

Oh, how strong is my testimony of this Gospel. How grateful am I to be a part of this church and to have the knowledge that I have about our Savior, His Atonement, and everything about our Gospel. Seriously. It is the best and I could not imagine my life without all the joy and peace the Gospel brings me. Stay strong everyone. Do those things every day that they teach you in Primary, because they are the most important and they work! Pray multiple times every day and with a sincere heart. Read your scriptures with the intent of learning, not just to say you read. Go to the temple and church with an open heart and mind. Do all those "primary answers" and the Lord will be more readily willing to bless you. It is true, I can testify of that.